I used to be very shy sexually, I grew up in a home where sex was never talked about and the group of girls I went around with were extremely religious, all of us were virgins when we got married. I had never touch myself except to wash. Pleasuring myself seemed gross, my husband did everything he could to get me to open up sexually. We had good sex, but after 4 years I still hadn’t had an orgasm, I didn’t really want too, at least that is what I thought.
He divorced me, not because he was cheating and definitely not because I was, he just said he was sick of feeling like he sucked at sex and that he wanted me to find someone that could please me. I knew he meant that he wanted someone more fun. I wished he had cheated then I could hate him and blame him, but since this was completely my fault I could only be mad at myself. After a short period of self hate, I decided that I was going to prove him wrong and make him hate his decision to leave me. My plan was simple, get a super hot guy or guys and send the video of us fucking to him. I thought it was the perfect plan except the sex part. I decided that I had to learn too cum, not an easy task for my 26 year old self.
I don’t drink much, but the best sex I ever had was when I was really drunk. I started by getting a pack of flavored vodka, my rabbit vibrator (which my ex had bought me hoping I would use it, which I never had), and a handful of porn I rented from this adult video vending machine, I could never had been able to walk into a video store to get it. I had only seen about ten second of porn before, at the time it grossed me out, but as I sorted threw the list of movies I begun to get a tingle between my legs. The thought of my ex seeing me watching the porn really made me horny.
As I left the machine I noticed a creepy guy staring at me, it really turned me on. Knowing that my body could make a man stare was exillirating. I never thought about myself as sexy. I am on the skinny side but far from perfect, I have average sized breast, but I have always thought my ass was the best part of me. I tried to wiggle it a little as I pasted the guy so he would turn and watch me. I turned to see if my bait had worked and he grabbed himself, I couldn’t believe that he did that right out in the open and that it really made me hot. The tingle turned into heat and I could feel my lips sliding together with the increasing lubrication as I walked to the car. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt this way.
I started drinking as soon as I got home, I turned the lights down and got out my favorite candles. I picked the first dvd, “Milfs teach young studs”. The cheesy title made me laugh as I had already started feeling buzzed. After about 30 minutes of watching old ladies getting pounded, I was tipsy and horny. It was awkward at first to see so many different naked bodies, but as I relaxed it really started to make me hot. I decided to get changed into something that would make me feel sexy. Read the rest of this entry »